I hate feeling like this, my chest is so heavy. I can feel the weight.

I could tell something was up, I couldn't sleep. I was up every 30-60 minutes. I can always tell when something is up, but never know what it is or how bad it's going to be. I just know something is coming.

I'd rather be one of those people that can see anything coming. Instead I'm stuck with the anxious feeling of knowing I'm heading for something, but almost never knowing what it was. Or maybe I do, I just don't pay close enough attention.